Trying something new

So I started this summer with the idea of losing weight. And I lost some, a whole 15 net pounds, but I had a hard time thinking I could do that forever. When the school year started, I admit that I was NOT following WeightWatchers and I felt guilty all the time about it.

And, to top it all off, I have come across a some articles about how nearly impossible weightloss is.

When I tell people how much I weigh and how much I want to lose, nearly everyone is surprised. It's apparent that I am heavy set and I do jiggle, but I am not overly fat. I fit in normal rollercoaster ride seats and on airplanes and in theaters. I've never had a problem with that.

I think what my real problem is that I have so much of my self esteem tied up in my weight that I feel that I can't feel good about myself until I look like a supermodel. That's not going to happen, no matter how much I want it. What I really need to do is learn how to love myself the way I am.

So, today, I cancelled my subscription to WeightWatchers and I bought a book on Amazon called Health at Every Size: the Surprising Truth About Your Weight. I heard about the book in Newsweek in which it detailed how the book came about and was tested with a government backed university study. The book is about helping you learn to follow internal clues for hunger and what things you should eat but it is NOT a weightloss book.

I'm going to read it and give it an honest try because WeightWatchers isn't working for me anymore. I was completely burned out on counting and tracking and the food got boring.

I hope this helps me feel better about me.

Ttfn

Weightloss? tip of the day: You have to love yourself the way you are.

All of August Was Terribly Busy

Note the title.

In August, I finished my internship, rushed home, spent time with my sister, watched Big Bang Theory Season 1, got to the hospital just in time to be there when my new niece was born, when back to Lafayette, worked out new student loans and started school.

So please forgive me for not writing much.

Recently, I have been having a hard time sticking to my diet (like today). I think it is because I am around so many people who aren't in the same position I am diet wise. However, I am staying motivated with my promise of a new tattoo and now that I have it planned, all I need to do is lose that 15 lbs so I can get it. (Yes, 15lbs, I gained some weight in August :'( ) What I want are the words "Leap before you look" in a nice curly font on my right foot, starting on the side and working across the top my foot. I think it'll be quite beautiful.

Also, at some time later, I don't know yet, I want to get three stars on my other foot.

I have realized how much I love to see this art on my body and it feels like a great tribute to who am I. I know that some of you are appalled by my love of tattooes but understand that it is my way of expressing myself. I am not good at drawing or taking pictures as I am not patient enough for either but I feel like my vision can come true with the help of some talented people at a tattoo parlor using me as their canvas.

And it is Thursday, so it is time for another wedding planning tip.

Flower arrangements are rather easy to do. If you are short on cash, think about having a flower arranging party a day or two before the wedding to get everything done yourself for cheaper than what it would have been to have the florist do it. Remember, though, to order some extra flowers in case of accidents.

Well that's all for now. Ttfn!