Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Trying something new

So I started this summer with the idea of losing weight. And I lost some, a whole 15 net pounds, but I had a hard time thinking I could do that forever. When the school year started, I admit that I was NOT following WeightWatchers and I felt guilty all the time about it.

And, to top it all off, I have come across a some articles about how nearly impossible weightloss is.

When I tell people how much I weigh and how much I want to lose, nearly everyone is surprised. It's apparent that I am heavy set and I do jiggle, but I am not overly fat. I fit in normal rollercoaster ride seats and on airplanes and in theaters. I've never had a problem with that.

I think what my real problem is that I have so much of my self esteem tied up in my weight that I feel that I can't feel good about myself until I look like a supermodel. That's not going to happen, no matter how much I want it. What I really need to do is learn how to love myself the way I am.

So, today, I cancelled my subscription to WeightWatchers and I bought a book on Amazon called Health at Every Size: the Surprising Truth About Your Weight. I heard about the book in Newsweek in which it detailed how the book came about and was tested with a government backed university study. The book is about helping you learn to follow internal clues for hunger and what things you should eat but it is NOT a weightloss book.

I'm going to read it and give it an honest try because WeightWatchers isn't working for me anymore. I was completely burned out on counting and tracking and the food got boring.

I hope this helps me feel better about me.


Weightloss? tip of the day: You have to love yourself the way you are.


  1. Yeah, the way I think of me losing weight is to get healthy and at a point where I can love myself. Because right now I am not healthy. Which I can't love myself because of the pain. Good luck sweetie.

  2. Honey, WE are proud of you no matter what. If you are happy with yourself that is all that matters. Be proud of who you are.

  3. Weight watchers may not work for everyone - you'll find something that will make you happy with yourself. I think you are beautiful! If you ever want to go work out at Newtone with me (or Janna) let me know. I LOVE the water aerobics because it's fun and I feel good after. Losing weight is hard to do! Let me know if you like that book.