Trying something new

So I started this summer with the idea of losing weight. And I lost some, a whole 15 net pounds, but I had a hard time thinking I could do that forever. When the school year started, I admit that I was NOT following WeightWatchers and I felt guilty all the time about it.

And, to top it all off, I have come across a some articles about how nearly impossible weightloss is.

When I tell people how much I weigh and how much I want to lose, nearly everyone is surprised. It's apparent that I am heavy set and I do jiggle, but I am not overly fat. I fit in normal rollercoaster ride seats and on airplanes and in theaters. I've never had a problem with that.

I think what my real problem is that I have so much of my self esteem tied up in my weight that I feel that I can't feel good about myself until I look like a supermodel. That's not going to happen, no matter how much I want it. What I really need to do is learn how to love myself the way I am.

So, today, I cancelled my subscription to WeightWatchers and I bought a book on Amazon called Health at Every Size: the Surprising Truth About Your Weight. I heard about the book in Newsweek in which it detailed how the book came about and was tested with a government backed university study. The book is about helping you learn to follow internal clues for hunger and what things you should eat but it is NOT a weightloss book.

I'm going to read it and give it an honest try because WeightWatchers isn't working for me anymore. I was completely burned out on counting and tracking and the food got boring.

I hope this helps me feel better about me.

Ttfn

Weightloss? tip of the day: You have to love yourself the way you are.